promises...

because thats what you do when it's the new year.

but i try and peridicly do it anyway, and make promises to myself of the things that i will do to make me and the people around me happier.

recently h and i have been doing it together.... telling each other what we are going to try so so hard to do, so that we can be accountable to someone besides ourselves. i think it's working.

but right now i need to write these things down as they are super important for how i am going to move through the world, to the best of my ability, for as long as i can muster.

without further adieu...

•  i will be more active and train so that i can feel better about the way i move through the world and so i can give my all to each horse i ride.
• i will be grateful for all the amazing people in my life, and all the things they contribute to it.
• i will be thankful for work and how much closer i get to my dreams every day because of work.
• i will move with more purpose. i will try and use yoga and pilates and bellydance to open my body and soul to it's potentials.
• i will adventure with those i love.
  

all the little things i want to do fit into those catagories. for instince: there is one of the most amazing people i've ever met, who is a huge and important part of my life, who is a completely beautiful person, who radiates warmth and love, who can adapt to most any situation, who has the singular ability to make me emerge from grumpdom, who can make the weather change, who people uncontrollable fall in love with (i'm one of those people), and who always seems to know the right thing to say. and i want to shower this incredible person with all the love i can and make them as happy as i can, and realize that they always have the best of intentions.

this is ryley. she is the cutest kitten i've ever met. her brother is the nicest kitten i've ever met.
together, they make me a super lucky kitten momma.


ok. so some other items of importance...

since i wrote about wheat intake, i've been trying to do a super good job of not eating wheat in large amounts. and it's been working, i think for two reasons. 1-it's the act of being thoughtful about what i put into my body and making sure i have enough of everything. and i've been making more food and eating more whole foods, like quinoa instead of pasta and rice instead of bread and brown rice pasta when i want to eat what everyone else is eating... or if h makes and amazing fake chorizzo sausage pasta sauce with a side of tofu cutlets topped with fresh mozzerella. oh geez, i'm getting hungry.

i've also been spreading out my meals, and eating smaller amounts throughout the day, and... well, i just started doing that bit. i only slipped up when the h.gold family come and we all went to the local taproom which just so happens to have the best mac and cheese on the planet, topped with swiss chard and marinated red onions, filled with melty cheese and feta cheese. it's a big huge bowl of perfect. and i ate a whole one with a really nice beer, a winter warmer. oh was it good.

OH the other reason this whole deal has been working 2- i really do think i have a little wee bit of a wheat issue of some kind.

here is the crazy part of what's been happening: i can wake up straight away.... no grumpmonster. i've been waking up in the middle of the night to pee, or h wakes me by talking in her sleep, or whatever, and as previously stated.... i'm UP.
and can't go back to sleep. sleep happens after a while. then in the morning my body just wakes up! seriously? i'm the worst waker -uper in the world.
i've been able to choose to go back to sleep if i only slept a few hours cause of work, and then wake up again later and still feel great.

it's crazy. i don't know what to blame on this new change of events. but it's cool. i like not being grumpy and having loads of energy in the morning with coffee as an option instead of a necessity.

but i could do without the sleepless nights. i'm hoping that doing more athletic and physical activities every day will help with that.

SO. that's been alot of blathering on about things. i think it's time to do a project... maybe some sewing of the projects that have made a mountain near my sewing machine. or maybe i'll do laundry. or both! oh how domestic this afternoon will be.

(will i be forgiven if i have one of these? ;)  )